Spoiled Brat = Less Happy Endings

--> "It's amazing how one story can lead to a different perspective... either literally or not."

And I started to change my perspective since a minute this day began. Tapi sebelum aku berceloteh, I wanna say Happy Birthday to Jakarta!! :) I'm hoping for more live concerts and less pollution... I wish Linkin Park would like to come once again!!!

Yah yah yah... ngelantur deh. Gini nih kalau semalam tidur jam 1 dan bangun jam setengah 4 pagi untuk travel ke Yogya dan mengetik archive blog jam 12 malam berikutnya. I had quite a day today and would like to share you all my story. I think I'd put up some pictures I took, too. Because one picture tells thousand stories, right? :) and I think I might as well give random writings for each things occurred in the trip.
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So here's how the trip had gone:

I went to Yogya this morning at 4 from dorm with my mother. We took a cab to get to the airport. At this state I fell asleep in the taxi and therefore could not take any pictures or know anything happened at the time. -__-''
As soon as we got to the airport, the clock stroke 4. We both quickly checked in and left the luggage to the crews. We found the airport was unexpectedly in a total crowd at the time THAT early. We met some TransTV reporter crews I wanted to say hello to but I didn't get to. We spotted a group of kids in uniform, looked like they were going far. They remind me so much of my last study tour with the Inter-classmates. Nice memories :)

*Sumber foto : Nyomot album Friendster jadul anak2 SBI. sori ya pilih yang gak ada anak ceweknya. Soalnya foto ini yang paling keliatan seni 'group travel'-nya. With backpacks, uniforms and luggages.

Ah, after we checked in, we walked upstairs by escalator. My mother asked me if I wanted to get into a lounge, since the plane would depart in one and half hour, so we didn't have to wait in the waiting room covered in boredom. I agreed. I had never got into a lounge anyway. Shortly, we went inside and had our breakfast there. [Random Writing Ahead] a list of feast a JW Exclusive Lounge provided (as far as I noticed):
Nasi Kuning
Bubur Ayam
Roti Tawar
Nhuh, that was all the meal, I think. There was actually a Rotiboy outlet outside the lounge, but it was still closed. But as for the beverage, they got a Nescafe Coffee Brewer!! World Heavens! Here's a list of the brewer buttons:
Nescafe Black
Nescafe Black Coffee with Sugar
Nescafe Brown
Nescafe Cappuccino
Okay, tidak penting hingga saat ini... tapi selain kopi, ada juga air putih, teh, soft drinks, dan minuman dingin kotak. So don't you think I was too over-freaking on coffee and couldn't notice anything else. ;) Another good thing I noticed was: there was an internet corner!!! Hell yeah!! I went there and tried to post something on blog but later I realized that there was no way I would connect my camera's memory card with a public computer. Plus, I got stuck on finding an idea of what to write. So I just browsed last.fm and billboard.com instead, that was something that got me to stay up tonight and download tons of songs I had browsed there. What I browsed was about:
All Time Low
The Temper Trap
Stone Temple Pilots
Daft Punk
Drowning Pool
Radiohead
Slipknot
Cage The Elephant
Allrighty, I was too busy focusing on the monitor that I just realized it was time for my mom and I to get into the airplane. Luckily we got into the plane on time and made no problems afterwards.
As you got into an airplane, you can ensure yourself that you're already secure. That's what I always do. And as I sat on the plane seat, that means boredom. Ah, but at the moment I was totally sleepy. So I tried to sleep.... and succeed, but the unconsciousness only lasted for half an hour or so. I saw quite the view as soon as I woke up. I worked to capture nice shots, but I didn't think my digital camera could really show the critical details I wanted to have picture memories of. So this was nowhere near my expectation. Nowhere close to the nature beauty I actually admired:

And at the state when the airplane landed:
Slowly, the plane went down and down until it stopped. Then... voila! Welcome to Yogyakarta!!
Yogya was a rather nice city with pleasant atmosphere, but alas, the traffic was apparently sooo crowded!! Well, not as crowded as Jakarta, but considering the circumstance of the street and number of people lived there, there was too much motorcycle roamed through the boulevard. Besides all the crowd, I guess everything was OK.
Shortly, what made us traveled to Yogya was for me to register into one of the best high school here. Thus, that was what we do. We took care of the education enlistment problems from 9 until 13. Afterwards? My mom and I hung out in a certain plaza in Yogya. We coincidentally arrived on a day an anime event for preschoolers was held, but it hadn't started yet.





We bought a pair of shoes for my brother. I myself got two football T-Shirts. :) The shopping thing took less than 2 hours (well, that's fast :P) then we lounged at Cafe Excelso, because we couldn't find Starbucks there.
Ah, you see, my enlistment problems didn't finish at 13 as soon as the consultation ended. I still had trouble to decide the best choice.
My biggest problem was: if I study at Yogya, I wouldn't be able to continue my physics training I've been wanting to end for so long. However, I felt it was kinda pity to let go the rare chance of physics training, and everyone was supporting the training I'm doing right now as it could give me nice 'passport' to let me choose any major I want to, when I finished the training. I had to decide:
1. sekolah di Yogya tapi bukan Tofina
2. Tofina tapi gak sekolah di Yogya
Options were only two but deciding one was hard for a spoiled brat like me. So I discussed the thing over cups of coffee at the cafe with my mom. I remembered that I already felt kinda into option 2, but the crazy-leveled difficulty of the technical problems I had was too much for me. I told her about my problems with the offensive critics from a tutor. I expressed the technical problems I had with analogies she could understand. One thing I didn't consult with her was that I was in love with Steve. :$ I'd be dead by the second I confessed about it. As we chatted the heavily-leveled conversation, the children event started. Well we did get distracted:

Anywaaayy... the discussion led me to choose option 2, at least. Apparently I just needed someone to talk about my problems, which is what I never had in the dorm. Mom was a very good listener (well in fact she is a mother). So we decide not to study in Yogya. At least I got two days off from training. yea, I'm sneaky :P muahhahahahah.
Hell yeah, after all the merciless (??) conversation, we went to my cousin's house and spent a night there. While my mom was sleeping, I quietly wrote this archive AND download tons of songs I had researched at the lounge before. Apparently the internet connection here was so satisfying!! :)) Here's a list of the songs:

All Time Low - Hello Brooklyn
All Time Low - Sick Little Games
All Time Low - Walls
Avenged Sevenfold - To End The Rapture
Blink 182 - What's My Age Again
Bullet For My Valentine - All These Things I Hate
Dead By Sunrise - Walking In Circles
Dirty Heads feat Rome - Lay Me Down
Finger Eleven - Paralyzed
Incubus - Anna Molly
KoRn - Blind
My Chemical Romance - Give 'Em Hell, Kid
My Chemical Romance - I Never Told You What I Do For A Living
My Chemical Romance - It's Not A Fashion Statement, It's A Deathwish
My Chemical Romance - You Know What They Do to Guys Like Us In Prison
The Offspring - You're Gonna Go Far, Kid
Papa Roach - Change or Die
Papa Roach - Had Enough
Papa Roach - Live This Down
Radiohead - Creep
The Smashing Pumpkins - 1979
Slipknot - Before I Forget
Stone Temple Pilots - Between The Lines
System of A Down - Aerials
The Temper Traps - Sweet Disposition

Ah that was amazing. I never downloaded so many songs at a time. *stunned* If you know any one of those above or have interests in, contact me or comment this entry and we'll chat over the songs! Or perhaps your interest's not my writing about the tracks? NP, let's talk!
Guess I'll end this entry here. See ya. It's already 3 a.m and I haven't slept. Ciao!! :)

Embrace The Days

Current State:
Mood : Melancholy
Music : Fort Minor - The Hard Way
Survival Rate : 43%

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"I'm still the same person, why doesn't anybody listen..." - The Hard Way (Fort Minor)
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Nothing special occurred this week... except big mess I've just put through alone and make me a victim of myself. Disaster of the week began with my plan to stay up until morning with no sleep after a pass-midnite study task. I didn't target to stay for the whole week, I just wanted to try for once for how it'd feel. But the plan was totally messed up. I failed at my first try on Sunday night.
"Who cares? It's a stupid idea to work on anyway." that might be what you think. It apparently influenced my bedtime habit. Because I stayed up late until 4 the Monday morning and got slept afterwards, I got up LATE! I woke at 7! Thus I had to rush to catch up the schoolbus and became so sleepy in the class. The same happened the next day. Worse, I woke at half to 8! WTF!? Despise, I still tried continuously to stay up with help of coffee and internet browsing (i downloaded tons of songs! at past midnight, the connection was quite fast!) but no use, either. I never managed to success. Was it all because I've been sleeping in Anna & Jill's room? Nah, no way. In my actual room, my roommate often turned the AC on a really cold temperature and THAT is what made me even more sleepy.

And thanks to the bad sleeping habit, I got so sensitive for the entire week. Especially to my crush Steve. In case you haven't known (well, nobody has), Steve was a high-schooler, older than me, artsie-minded just like me, and the only one to respond to my farewell text message before we all went home. Strangely, he hadn't been so artsie-minded lately, not like the first impression he gave me. Perhaps all these physics things influenced him to a nerdie state. Well, Steve always wanted to discuss technical stuffs with Jill. Besides, he seemed to always get so cheerful around her. I witnessed many times when all of us joined together, he looked so carefree, but when Jill went away to take something she left or else, he became so serious with what he was doing. Hnng. I was freaking jealous. You know that jealously kills. Especially if a sensitive-stated teen experienced it. I've thrown Jill my "please-hand-over-Steve's-question-to-me" look but she responded with nothing or the non-deliberate worst "you-are-a-frontal-disturbing-bitch" look. Not that we were rivals or something. She was so careless and rather insensitive for a girl standard. The look she threw was what I felt it was like. Back to topic.

As if it couldn't get worse, this week we got into 4new topic of physics: static electricity. The tutor admits himself that it was one hell of lesson to learn for all the advanced math like vector calculus and curls.
Oh yeah, this tutor is one thing that spiced up my week. He was a tutor with casual character, funny physical appearance and rather childish, but globally oriented and open-minded. When he tutored our class, there are only 2 probabilities of what might happen: 1. he would only supervise us doing the textbook problems and joke around or 2. he would inspire us with his simply-said impressive thoughts. Point 2 would only occurred when we stepped into a new material or when he finished checking our test result (which are always a big zero). It happened seldom, but he told us things we never knew. He saw a concept in a brand new point of view, an easier one to understand. He always asked us our view of problem-solving ways. Shortly, he treated us not like the people who had to eat all the lesson he gave us, but as the people who he could discuss problems with. I liked that kind of teaching style. Moreover, this week he mentioned about 'sense'. A sense to solve most of physics problems. A sense to detect our mistake on the solving progress. He told us that THAT sense is critically important, and it doesn't limited in physics solving only. A sense we hadn't had, that differed us from the ultimate national physics team. "With me still standing here teaching all of you, it indicates your total failure." was one of the sentence he said that week. He tried to imply that physics needed no tutor. Physics needed logic and sense he mentioned before, and other than that, a tutor's role was just a company to discuss things over.
Those words he spoke had caught us really deep. True, he was one tutor to go. Unfortunately, his childish personality still couldn't be replaced even with statement that deep. He was a slob, he was lazy, he admitted it himself. But his laziness drove him to solve problems in more practical ways... and those worked. He also said that "because of laziness, physics develops. It's learned so people don't have to get so bothered to do lots of heavy works." I found it totally right.
TOO BAD, his laziness made us hanging off this morning. Normally, we had unsupervised test at 8 every Saturday, but whenever he was the one who should made the test, the question sheet was ALWAYS late. Like today, we waited for the tutor to deliver the test while chatting over and studied a little this morning. However, he was nowhere in sight and couldn't be contacted at all. So today we had no test, but I'm scared if it'd be delayed for tomorrow or Monday. His tests were all unbelievably difficult, and I hated to do the test in front of his sight. It always gave me the creep. =S
So right now I'm in a hesitation to study or not. I'm afraid we had to do the test on Sunday, thus NO WEEKEND. If it was to held on Monday, then he had to be supervising us. Like I wrote, I HATED it.
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